Life's a bitch then you die.: Things I want to tell people, that I wish people had told me:

sehnsuchttraum:

  • You don’t have to achieve great things by the time you’re 25
  • You have intrinsic value above and beyond your perceived utility to other people and society at large.
  • You don’t have to have sex, or have sex in any way that you find uncomfortable or unpleasant, to keep…

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lalala… *fart* … oops

Headphones in, walking down the street, all I hear is the music in my own little world and then suddenly, the urge to fart.

I let one rip

Realise what I just did

My face goes completely red and I turn to look around to see if anyone was caught in the crossfire.

Little asian lady is walking behind me pulling her trolley thing.  Looks at me.  I look at her.  Awkward.

We pretend that nothing happened.  Lucky its outside and in the fresh air.

Just because I can’t hear people around me, doesn’t mean they’re not there lol

I’m sucha slob lol

Above & Beyond - Sun & Moon

Amazing song especially when the crowd starts singing along to it :)

It’s raining, it’s pouring
A black sky is falling
It’s cold tonight

You gave me your answer
Goodbye
Now I’m all on my own tonight

And when the big wheel starts to spin
You can never know the odss
If you don’t play you’ll never win

We were in heaven you and I
When I lay with you and close my eyes
Our fingers touch the sky

I’m sorry baby
You were the sun and moon to me
I’ll never get over you, you’ll never get over me

Tomb Raider: Art Crimes

Did a pretty wicked thing the other day. Friend calls up and tells us about this tram yard we should visit to take photos and stuff of.. We’re all newb photogramaphers carrying large expensive kits. Whilst everyone sports large dslrs, I pull out my tiny micro four thirds lol

Usually size does matter, but for this instance, couldn’t really give a fk. But lol cos im physically the biggest guy there, and i have the smallest camera… it looked kinda disproportionate but hey, its how you use it and not all about the size

So the five of us are sitting in the cafe, still waiting for our food to come out and it starts raining… lightly *sad fase*. One moment we were all so happy and excited, the next everyone’s spirits kinda just broke. But problem solved when CK pulled out her iphone and an app that showed expected rainfall. Freakishly accurate, it predicted rainfall… so at 2pm, the rain let up.. just like the app said, then at 2:30pm it started to rain again…just like the app said o_O
“OMG theres a period of no rain for 30 mins at 3:00!” lol taking advantage of this super amazing prediction and CK’s phone app we all got in the car and drove to this tram yard. Thing is, we didn’t exactly know where it was… lol

We were directed very well by TL on his phone… to the wrong location. Fail… and my phone didn’t have a good data connection, so I had no idea where we were going either. Stopping at some place that looked like a tram yard we got out and realised that there was just no way in. Barbed wire fence and dense trees made it pretty much impossible … especially for a bunch of goody two shoes carrying expensive camera gear. I mean cmon, the most adventurous thing I’ve done is probably riding a rollercoaster 6x in a row non-stop and I’m pretty sure the other guys haven’t done anything like this before. It was now 3:30pm. It starts raining.

The other guys head back and into the car. Me and TL decide we’re gunna try going a little further. I’m glad we made that call cos the other 3 decided theyd come along. just that little bit of motivation and lead goes a long way J initiative

Circling the perimeter we find the main gate and another fellow photogramapher contemplating how to get in. After much deliberation, my group decided to scale the fence, both of them. We’d come this far not to attempt to get in, and hey, how hard is it to scale a fence right? Lol Random chick photogramapher says she’d find another way in as she watched us commando rolling under the first fence. We never saw her again.

The second fence was a bit trickier. I always get this pang of anxiety when it comes to something to do with heights. I’m always thinking that it’ll end badly asif I climb to the top of the fence, and then with nowhere left to go, i kinda faceplant coming down the other side lol
*deep breath* foot goes up, second foot goes up and hand goes on top of the fence pole. Ow you stupid fence pole. I hesitate “How the fk do I get down?” “just jump man, you’ll be fine”. Here goes, one leg over, gets enough support and other leg goes over. Hand pivoting on the fence pole and for support, I jump down. Ow you stupid fence pole.

Man that stings, I look down at my middle finger, a small gash. Great. “Hey dude you alright?” “yeh just a little cut no dramas” Look down again and droplets of blood appear. Oh cmon seriously!? There’s dirt and mud everywhere and I had to go cut myself and no running water anywhere. It starts dripping… “uh anyone got a bandaid?” haha unfortunately, no one did. I pull out a fabric tote bag that I had stuffed in my backpack to make a makeshift bandage = randomly wrapping giant bag over one finger. I look like a tard and imagine trying to take photos with that in one hand…

“I feel so ALIVE!” MT says as she jumps down from the fence. We all chuckle thinking this is unbelievable. We’re actually doing this. We see the massive building in front of us. White, old and run down with one of its large metal gates opened slightly, beckoning and inviting us to discover… we run towards it laughing and full of energy like we originally had in the cafe. This is it. The tomb awaits…

  

 

Q:Why do you think taking that pill changed everything for you?
If you dont mind me asking, what did it do?

notesofaromantic

I believe the pill made me gay

I think I still harbour resentment towards myself and like most closetted guys pressured into conforming to a straight world, have taken the position of self hatred or at least trying to blame something else for this “anomoly”.  Its not healthy I know, but I’m just a stubborn asshole at the end of the day and its the worst when I’m in conflict with myself.  I’m in the process of learning to love myself more and open my heart and mind to things that will hopefully one day make me realise and wake the fk up! haha

Q:Thank you for following! I really wish you can accept yourself they way you are-I was raised by all lesbians and gays. I hope you sincerely don't believe a dose of estrogen changed your orientation. Just know that regardless of all the extremists, homosexuals are loved by many. (:

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Thanks for your support! It’s people like you that help make the world a better place.  Keep loving like you do, your care touches more people than you would know :)

No matter what happened, I am who I am today and I will always work to change what I can change, and that is to become a better person

Knowledge is power, power corrupts. Study hard, be evil

…and so begins the last of my subjects to knock down before I finally get my accreditation in the world’s most boring profession. I think you can take a guess at what that would be.

Sometimes I wonder what determines a person’s degree of success. Like, is it truly the number of certificates, qualifications and accreditations that you can stick onto your resume/CV? Why do we have to educate ourselves so much, so much mental stress and go through all those shitty exams…. I hate exams so much T___T lol why make yourself jump through all these hoops?
My theory is that whilst the amount of book smarts you have will get you opening doors to potential employers, its really the other stuff like how well you communicate, think on your feet and your ability to relate to people that really get you through the door and INSIDE the company whether big or small, employees are the greatest asset an organisation has. If they aren’t treating you like that then you know what? fk them and find someone better lol within reason of course haha

Studying is such a freaking chore… But it demonstrates to potential employers how well adept you are at picking up new concepts, applying them and just generally its a good indicator of your work ethic. I think more and more nowadays, people want to work with personable people, makes sense right? If you were given the choice between two people to work with – one who is a control freak and always wants their way vs a genuine open person, both with the same skill sets, its somewhat silly (i think) to go with the control freak… Unless of course the job calls for it. Not sure what experiences you guys might have had, but unreasonable people just make me wonder wtf goes on in their heads… I stare into their eyes looking for answers but all I get are sad blank eyes… ffs *shakes other person* people who cant farking explain their actions and reasoning behind their decisions piss me off… But then again, im one of those objective rational type of people so suppresses their emotions and has reasons for doing everything. Im pretty much a robot anyway so emotions and all that fluffy stuff confuse me… Haha

Its been a long time since last update, bit the bullet and finally moved in with babe, its been a little bit tough but we’re getting a routine going, barely have enough time at home and omg I’m learning how to cook by myself! Made my first stir fry the other night clocked in at just over 1hr – amazing and babe liked it, probs just out of politeness lol

i’m turning into a house hubby :( … but I’m also the breadwinner at the same time - go figure… lol I think babe’s got a good deal/bargain going…